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now this isnt my past life story but i found it and thought it would interest everyone hope u like:
Visions of the Sphinx
by MsAerisShinRa
For a long time now I've been having these strange... things, happening. The people I've told said they were almost like visions or something.
It all began when I woke up one morning, sat up rather strangely and randomly thought about what was under the Sphinx at Giza. Now, my mother was and still is into Ancient Egypt, but it wasn't until all the weird things started happening that I myself took an interest. I started to, as I say, wonder about what was under the sands in the Giza region and I don't know how or even why, but I came to the conclusion that the tomb of the God Osiris was there. He is my favorite of all the gods, because I feel a closeness to him in some way. I just have to look at his face and I get all these emotions sweep through me. Its weird... I'll start to cry and feel like I'm grieving or something.
I feel kinda strange talking about this.. so bear with me if I go round in circles a bit.
Ever since that morning, I've been having strange vision type things. I've been totally awake and on the odd occasion I've been staring out of my bedroom window and then something would flash into my brain. The first of these came a couple of months after that morning. I don't remember what I was doing at the time, but a place suddenly flashed in my head, but then vanished.
It was a large room, a tomb type chamber, with two of those large bowls with oil burning in them (I'll just call them oil burners) the floor was made of dark marble and the rest of the room was made of sandstone, marble and granite. In the centre of the room was either a sarcophagus or some similar shaped slab and on/in it was a body lying peacefully with their eyes closed. It was a man. Not long after I had this, they found what they believed to be Osiris' tomb under the sands at Giza.
The next "vision" or whatever you may call it came a while afterwards. It was during the day and again, it was a while ago, so I don't recall what I was doing at the time. It flashed in my head and left again. It was the time of day when the sky is still blue, but the sun has started to set slowly turning everything orange. There were birds playing in the sky and in amongst the trees either side of an avenue of Sphinxes with Rams heads and there was a man in a chariot riding down it being drawn by two white horses decked out in ostrich feathers. The man was wearing a blue skull cap style thing. Probably a servant or something? I don't know. But I was dressed in white linen and I had gold ornaments. Necklaces and such. I had long black hair (which is odd because I have shortish red hair
(dyed) at the moment.)
I was stood in the entrance to what seemed to be a temple or something and there were two dark corridors, one leading left, the other right with an oil burner at the start of each. The strange part about these things is that they are so detailed. I can smell things too. And in this one there was a heavy scent of Incense. It was a while till I had another of these. But sure enough, I had another. I was sitting on my bed at around four in the afternoon looking out the window at the sky when suddenly an image flashed in my head. It was as though I was blind for a second, but it passed. It was so fast, I only caught a glimpse of the place and it kinda freaked me
out a bit.
About a day later, it happened again, but this time it wasn't as sudden. I was in white again, with black hair. I was reclining on a long seat with two purple cusions beneath me. There were two people either side of me. To my left was a man with a parasol style thing and to my right was another man with a Flabellum (fan of feathers) slowly fanning me as it was around midday and the sun was hot. I could hear the distant call of a falcon and there was a very slight cool breeze. Also to my right, there was a table with a large bowl of fruit on it and next to that were musicians playing lyres etc. To my left in the distance I could plainly see what I saw the day previously when it flashed in my mind. It was the pyramids.
A few days after I had yet another. It was a dark room with two oil burners either side or a large statue of Bast(et) the cat goddess and there was a sound almost like a gong or something large made of metal being struck and incense again filled the air. The thing that is most weird is I'm always wide awake when this happens. I'm never tired or drifting to sleep, I'm always doing something.
I've told many people about it and they have all said the same thing. Which is, in itself, a little strange. Isis re-incarnate? Well, hehe, I'm not a believer in re-incarnation myself, but to them I guess it would explain my connection and deep feeling for Osiris, the fact that I had that tomb vision before they found his tomb (if it really is his) and that I had some clue of where it was before they had even mentioned it.
But, geeze, its a little strong really... I just felt I needed other peoples opinions on the matter.
Now, in the past there has been some misunderstandings, so I'll just list the ones I've answered:
1. I don't believe in re-incarnation at all. If reasonable evidence was given to prove otherwise, then sure I'd at least consider it... but until then I do not believe.
2. My interest in Egypt only came about BECAUSE of these weird 'visions', so it is impossible for it to influence my thoughts in any way at all.
3. I am not claiming to be anyone at all, I was merely repeating what my friends have said.
4. It can't be a memory from an early childhood trip to Egypt as we have NEVER been.
I've spoken to my Mother a lot about all this and she's had some similar things happen to her too. It was only today she had it happen too. And when I've had these "visions," I've been both alone and with people. Sometimes I'll be on my own in my room or in the lounge and other times I've been with my mother when it's happened.
I know one thing... there seems to be a strange link to the number 2 in my 'visions'. 2 White horses, 2 Oil Burners, 2 people, 2 cushions etc etc... In the Ausir (Osiris) legend... 2 was highly significant towards his scattered body parts. 2 feet; 2 legs; 2 thighs; 2 hands; 2 forearms; 2 upper arms etc etc... December 25 was Osiris' resurrection day and that is ruled by Capricorn. (My sign.) and Isis was born on the 4th day... and I was born on the 4th day of the 1st month! But, these probably don't mean anything... I don't know.
I had another strange thing happen on the 1st of January of this year. I was just lying down this morning trying to keep warm (blasted weather) when I decided to see how comfy it was to lay how they used to wrap mummies up. I thought it'd be a right laugh. My Mom and my brother were in the house and Mom had just nipped down stairs to fix dinner and I was in her room.
But when I did it, I had a strange sensation sweep over me, almost like a falling feeling and I felt myself... rather strangly... in another enviroment. I feel silly saying this, but it seemed as if I was sealed in a sarcophagus. But the strange part was... I was rising up throught it, almost... like I was in a spirit form or something. The feeling wouldn't go away, but I had decided I wanted to explore my so called visions from now on, so I tried to keep hold of it for a little while longer. But, as soon as I broke the cross shape my arms were making the enviroment and feeling vanished.
I've been asked by a friend of mine if I ever have anything near me or whether I'm wearing anything specific when I have these things happen. Well... I always wear an Ankh around my neck. And I've never told anyone about this (appart from my family), but when I take it off I feel empty inside, almost like I'm missing something. I once accidentally made the mistake of discovering this fact once when I was out with my Mother and some of her work friends at a pub. I took it off and freaked everyone out I think. lol.
As regards to Osiris, though, you know, my feelings towards him. I am so confused about it. I can't exactly tell what sort of emotion it is? I mean. If someone makes your blood boil when you look at them, then that is obviously hatred and if you see a dead person and cry that's sadness, etc... So maybe you can help here. I dunno. I just want to know what emotion it is that I'm feeling here.
When I see him, I feel a mixture of things at one time, sometimes even contradictory feelings. My heart feels heavy, I just cannot take my eyes away from his face. I just have to look at him to feel happy. It does that no matter if I'm down or not, I just take one look and I'm fine again. I also feel as if I need to 'find' him or something. Like he exists and I need to be with him and stay with him for the rest of my existance. I feel as if I cannot live without him being with me. But, also, at the same time as feeling a strange euphoria, I feel as though I'm in mourning. A heavy feeling hits me and, once or twice (as i've said before) I have even started to cry. Why do I feel like I need to be with him forever and that I cannot bear to be without him.
I have had other visions since, but they have all been based around Giza. I have also found a place that resembles the room with the sarcophagusin my first vision! I have never ever seen this before appart from in my "'vision," so I'm a little weirded out.
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